So, I haven´t actually looked at my bucket list since I started uni. And when I found it in my box of memories this morning, I realised it needed a good review, because it mirrors the hopes and dreams of a teenage fighter, not a nearly 20year old woman.
So, here are 5 random things I have on my bucket list (my mental one):
-Travel on my own;
-Be independent (financially and mentally);
-Do bungee jumping and/or sky diving;
-Set up a real home of my own, somewhere I feel comfortable and safe;
-Take cookery classes;
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January 04, 2011
January 01, 2011
New Dawn
2010 was special because of quite a few things:
A reality check - exams and more exams - almost lost my mind.
A new and incredible boyfriend.
The discovery of jealousy.
Taking out my three lip piercings.
Giving up smoking.
A road trip to Jersey with my Mum!
Going on a archaeological dig, and realising that I am on the right path.
My worst piss up ever - never, never again will I touch bagaço.
Some body issues - resolved by realising I´m the one in charge of the way I look.
A lot of growing up, managing house and finances.
A lot of facing up to my feeling, and talking about difficult issues.
Meeting my "in-laws" and going to my boyfriends house.
Bringing my boyfriend home.
Realising my best friend (and our friendship) is fading.
2011 is going to be amazing, I know. I´m going to make it amazing.
I promise to:
Travel - ERASMUS mobility program - UK? Holand? Italy?
Try not to judge.
Be more understanding.
Quit the moaning.
Give love freely.
Dig all Summer - with a small festival break - Andanças? Boom?
Express myself more.
Read at least one book a week - and not brainwashing novels.
Watch at least one international film a week (as in, one that isn´t English/American).
Start my mega book project - soon to be explained.
Write more - English and Portuguese.
Speak up.
Be more secure of myself.
Love my boyfriend with all of my body and soul.
"And this old world is a new world
And a bold world
For me"
A reality check - exams and more exams - almost lost my mind.
A new and incredible boyfriend.
The discovery of jealousy.
Taking out my three lip piercings.
Giving up smoking.
A road trip to Jersey with my Mum!
Going on a archaeological dig, and realising that I am on the right path.
My worst piss up ever - never, never again will I touch bagaço.
Some body issues - resolved by realising I´m the one in charge of the way I look.
A lot of growing up, managing house and finances.
A lot of facing up to my feeling, and talking about difficult issues.
Meeting my "in-laws" and going to my boyfriends house.
Bringing my boyfriend home.
Realising my best friend (and our friendship) is fading.
2011 is going to be amazing, I know. I´m going to make it amazing.
I promise to:
Travel - ERASMUS mobility program - UK? Holand? Italy?
Try not to judge.
Be more understanding.
Quit the moaning.
Give love freely.
Dig all Summer - with a small festival break - Andanças? Boom?
Express myself more.
Read at least one book a week - and not brainwashing novels.
Watch at least one international film a week (as in, one that isn´t English/American).
Start my mega book project - soon to be explained.
Write more - English and Portuguese.
Speak up.
Be more secure of myself.
Love my boyfriend with all of my body and soul.
"And this old world is a new world
And a bold world
For me"
December 20, 2010
Home and Away
Soube bem regressar a casa depois deste semestre.
Sabe tão bem acordar com o cheiro a café, trocar conversa de circunstância com o meu pai, confrontar a minha mãe, partilhar o sofá e a manta com as minhas irmãs.
A minha família é tão preciosa, tão necessária...e ao mesmo tempo, tão irritante.
Depois de viver "sozinha" e estabelecer as minhas próprias regras os meus horários, voltar a casa é um bocado duro. Já não estou habituada a ter que esperar, a ter que me sentar à mesa e jantar (embora gosto muito de o fazer), a ter regras, a lavar montanhas de louça, a lidar com a desarrumação constante de todos.
Mas sei que, por mais que me deixem doida, quando voltar para Coimbra, vou sentir falta. Muita falta.
Pondero como será no futuro. Primeiro, ERASMUS - 6 meses sem ver a família. Eu, que volto quase todos os fins-de-semana, que escondo as lágrimas quando entro na sala depois de uma semana dura e vejo todos à minha espera, vou sobreviver 6 meses com mero contacto telefónico?!
E algures no futuro, vou deixar de considerar a casa dos meus pais a minha casa, vou ter casa própria, não vou voltar todos os fins de semana. Vou ligar de vez em quando, e vou passar o Natal, os aniversários e a Páscoa (?).
Assusta. Tanto. Preciso da minha família.
Será que vou deixar de precisar algum dia?
Será que o sentimento desvanece?
Sabe tão bem acordar com o cheiro a café, trocar conversa de circunstância com o meu pai, confrontar a minha mãe, partilhar o sofá e a manta com as minhas irmãs.
A minha família é tão preciosa, tão necessária...e ao mesmo tempo, tão irritante.
Depois de viver "sozinha" e estabelecer as minhas próprias regras os meus horários, voltar a casa é um bocado duro. Já não estou habituada a ter que esperar, a ter que me sentar à mesa e jantar (embora gosto muito de o fazer), a ter regras, a lavar montanhas de louça, a lidar com a desarrumação constante de todos.
Mas sei que, por mais que me deixem doida, quando voltar para Coimbra, vou sentir falta. Muita falta.
Pondero como será no futuro. Primeiro, ERASMUS - 6 meses sem ver a família. Eu, que volto quase todos os fins-de-semana, que escondo as lágrimas quando entro na sala depois de uma semana dura e vejo todos à minha espera, vou sobreviver 6 meses com mero contacto telefónico?!
E algures no futuro, vou deixar de considerar a casa dos meus pais a minha casa, vou ter casa própria, não vou voltar todos os fins de semana. Vou ligar de vez em quando, e vou passar o Natal, os aniversários e a Páscoa (?).
Assusta. Tanto. Preciso da minha família.
Será que vou deixar de precisar algum dia?
Será que o sentimento desvanece?
December 10, 2010
Heart of Gold
Nobody said it would be easy...
Finding a balance is never easy.
I give, you give. Maybe you give more sometimes, maybe I give more other times.
On many occasions, finding a middle term is terribly hard. I push, you push. I pull, you pull.
It doesn´t mean I love you any less, it doesn´t mean I appreciate you any less.
We don´t just fall in love, and fall in to perfect synchrony. How perfect would that be? How boring would that become?
We have hard times, we have good times. We have times of peace, we have times of conflict.
But we don´t give up. Something pushes us forward, makes us want to try again, makes us turn over in bed and hug one another, makes us reach out once more.
You´ve touched me, you´ve changed me.
I never want to leave - but I know that day will come. The day when, maybe we give up, or maybe we part as friends, or maybe we just fade away.
Right now, I can´t even think of that day. That day better be far, far away, because I can´t deal with that day just yet.
You are way to precious, way to necessary, way to familiar.
And I am way to scared of being left all alone is this big, big scary world.
I am sure, with all of my soul and my body, that I love you, more than I ever thought possible.
Don´t forget that, ok? I never will.
"Balance is not letting anyone love you less than you love yourself"
Finding a balance is never easy.
I give, you give. Maybe you give more sometimes, maybe I give more other times.
On many occasions, finding a middle term is terribly hard. I push, you push. I pull, you pull.
It doesn´t mean I love you any less, it doesn´t mean I appreciate you any less.
We don´t just fall in love, and fall in to perfect synchrony. How perfect would that be? How boring would that become?
We have hard times, we have good times. We have times of peace, we have times of conflict.
But we don´t give up. Something pushes us forward, makes us want to try again, makes us turn over in bed and hug one another, makes us reach out once more.
You´ve touched me, you´ve changed me.
I never want to leave - but I know that day will come. The day when, maybe we give up, or maybe we part as friends, or maybe we just fade away.
Right now, I can´t even think of that day. That day better be far, far away, because I can´t deal with that day just yet.
You are way to precious, way to necessary, way to familiar.
And I am way to scared of being left all alone is this big, big scary world.
I am sure, with all of my soul and my body, that I love you, more than I ever thought possible.
Don´t forget that, ok? I never will.
"Balance is not letting anyone love you less than you love yourself"
December 05, 2010
You Learn
"After some time you learn the difference, the subtle difference between giving a hand and chaining a soul.
And you learn that to love don't mean to lean on, and that company doesn´t always mean safety.
And you begin to learn that kisses are not contracts and presents are not promises.
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head held high, with an adult's grace and not with a child's sadness.
After some time you learn that the sun burns if you are exposed to it for a long time.
And you learn that it doesn't matter how much you care, some people simply don't care... and you accept that doesn't matter how good a person can be, they will hurt you once in a while and you need to learn to forgive them for that.
And what matters is not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life. You realize that it takes a long time to become the person that you want to be, and that time is short.
You realize that just because somebody doesn't loves you the way that you want, it doesn't mean that somebody don't love you as much as they can, therefore there are people that love us, but they simply don´t know as how to show it or to live it.
You learn that it is not always enough to be forgiven by someone, sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
You learns that it doesn't matter in how many pieces your heart was broken, the world doesn't stop so that you can repair it.
Therefore, plant your garden and decorate your soul, instead of hoping someone will bring you flowers..."
William Shakespeare
And you learn that to love don't mean to lean on, and that company doesn´t always mean safety.
And you begin to learn that kisses are not contracts and presents are not promises.
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head held high, with an adult's grace and not with a child's sadness.
After some time you learn that the sun burns if you are exposed to it for a long time.
And you learn that it doesn't matter how much you care, some people simply don't care... and you accept that doesn't matter how good a person can be, they will hurt you once in a while and you need to learn to forgive them for that.
And what matters is not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life. You realize that it takes a long time to become the person that you want to be, and that time is short.
You realize that just because somebody doesn't loves you the way that you want, it doesn't mean that somebody don't love you as much as they can, therefore there are people that love us, but they simply don´t know as how to show it or to live it.
You learn that it is not always enough to be forgiven by someone, sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
You learns that it doesn't matter in how many pieces your heart was broken, the world doesn't stop so that you can repair it.
Therefore, plant your garden and decorate your soul, instead of hoping someone will bring you flowers..."
William Shakespeare
November 26, 2010
The World
from: http://spotdessertbar.tumblr.com/post/1604053313/we-3-cookies-full-of-3s
"You know what I'm scared of?
That one day you'll wake up and think that I'm not as great as you thought I was. That one day you'll wake up and find that I'm not as pretty as before.
That one day you'll wake up and find that you don't love me as much as you use to."
November 09, 2010
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,...?
Sometimes you make me smile
Sometimes you make me laugh
Sometimes you even make me cry
And although it is not always perfect, it doesn’t make me love you less.
The longer we are together, the more I love you, the more I need you.
The more I miss you when you are gone.
So, here´s to us. Because we are amazing, despite everything.
Sometimes you make me laugh
Sometimes you even make me cry
And although it is not always perfect, it doesn’t make me love you less.
The longer we are together, the more I love you, the more I need you.
The more I miss you when you are gone.
So, here´s to us. Because we are amazing, despite everything.
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