Ela ouve a chuva a bater nas telhas, sobre a sua cabeça. Está enroscada no sofá, num cobertor de lã. Sente-se tão pequena, e tão sozinha. O mundo tornou-se outra vez assustador, e custa-lhe até sair da cama de manhã.
E por mais que sejam simpáticos, e reconfortantes, ela não ouve. Fecha-se, cada vez mais distante. Ela não quer ser reconfortada. Conforma-se com a solidão que a acompanha diariamente, e que se começa a tornar a sua melhor amiga.
Sabe que está dirigida para um beco sem saída, mas continua a andar, cabeça baixa contra o vento, ouvidos moucos contra os avisos. Ela quer dar o último passo, e sentir o muro contra o seu rosto, áspero e frio.
Ficar encostada, no escuro e saber que não tem que sentir nada nunca mais.
February 27, 2010
February 22, 2010
Nightmares
...Oh for a sweet sound sleep.
...Oh for a silly simple dream.
And yet all I see is your face, and your life that no longer incorporates mine.
So long sucker... See you in my dreams.
...Oh for a silly simple dream.
And yet all I see is your face, and your life that no longer incorporates mine.
So long sucker... See you in my dreams.
February 20, 2010
Awe
Pois consegui passar naquela disciplina. Jamais vou voltar a tocar naquele dossier cinzento, a não ser para o arrumar no fundo do armário.
Satisfação porque no final do 1ºsemestre consegui acabar todas as minhas disciplinas com notas melhores do que algum dia imaginei.
E preocupada, porque lembro-me que nem todos estão tão contentes com as suas vidas. Só uma lembrança, tipo post-it: EU ESTOU AQUI, sabes?
Satisfação porque no final do 1ºsemestre consegui acabar todas as minhas disciplinas com notas melhores do que algum dia imaginei.
E preocupada, porque lembro-me que nem todos estão tão contentes com as suas vidas. Só uma lembrança, tipo post-it: EU ESTOU AQUI, sabes?
February 13, 2010
Wish Upon a Star
And make the world go round, round, round...
Bored, lifeless, and pretty much brain dead. I´m in awe that I still remember where the keys on the laptop are.
More than two weeks at home, and guess what: I´m going mad! Nothing like my noisy, messy and nosey family to drive me up the wall. I´m counting the seconds till I´m back in sweet lonely paradise aka Coimbra. Yay to freedom. Or something of the sort. And yay to classes, cause I need to snap back in to an intelligent world, pls! Guilty, cause family is loving having me back. Wonder why? Could it be my capacity to do 50 million dishes, and keep kitchen table clean? Or do they simply love me?
Also, so bleeping messed in the brain, still can´t quite believe my capacities to turn everything upside down. I, who enjoy order and tidyness, manage to run riot in my life. So much for control freak. I guess I´ll just sit back and watch it happen, once more. Or can we do it differently this time? Is it time to break the cicle? Will spend some time on this subject, when I return to life as it was before. Right now, all I want is a big blanket, lots of silly movies, and possibly a kg of chocolate. Will refrain from any of the before. I do have will power buried deep inside, somewhere.
Also, have gone mado over http://www.youtube.com/user/charlieissocoollike, and spend hours dancing around the front room singing "spots on my back bla bla bla". Will my family have me locked up?
And so much for Valentines Day. I laught in the face of Valentines. Must remember to spend day cursing all happy couples, and reminding myself how lucky I am not to have human attachment. Do I really mean it, though?
Bored, lifeless, and pretty much brain dead. I´m in awe that I still remember where the keys on the laptop are.
More than two weeks at home, and guess what: I´m going mad! Nothing like my noisy, messy and nosey family to drive me up the wall. I´m counting the seconds till I´m back in sweet lonely paradise aka Coimbra. Yay to freedom. Or something of the sort. And yay to classes, cause I need to snap back in to an intelligent world, pls! Guilty, cause family is loving having me back. Wonder why? Could it be my capacity to do 50 million dishes, and keep kitchen table clean? Or do they simply love me?
Also, so bleeping messed in the brain, still can´t quite believe my capacities to turn everything upside down. I, who enjoy order and tidyness, manage to run riot in my life. So much for control freak. I guess I´ll just sit back and watch it happen, once more. Or can we do it differently this time? Is it time to break the cicle? Will spend some time on this subject, when I return to life as it was before. Right now, all I want is a big blanket, lots of silly movies, and possibly a kg of chocolate. Will refrain from any of the before. I do have will power buried deep inside, somewhere.
Also, have gone mado over http://www.youtube.com/user/charlieissocoollike, and spend hours dancing around the front room singing "spots on my back bla bla bla". Will my family have me locked up?
And so much for Valentines Day. I laught in the face of Valentines. Must remember to spend day cursing all happy couples, and reminding myself how lucky I am not to have human attachment. Do I really mean it, though?
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