...Shut it out. All of it. All the meaningless chatter, the white noise in the back of my mind. Just make it stop, make it all quiet.
...The noise takes over, and reality mingles with an endless string of silly conversations, that happen inside my own brain and that are out of my reach.
...I just wish it would stop. I wish I could close my eyes, and run through this with my hands over my ears, screaming just so I can block everything else out.
I hate that I can´t turn it off. I´ve never been able too. I´ve never shut down my little voice, never just let it go. I´ve always got out of bed on time, studied for my exams, worried about the things I have to do, and when I have to do them. I can´t just make it disappear, it does not work like that. I´m not in control. I can´t just stay in bed all day, can´t put down work that needs doing. I can´t. And it´s driving me nuts...
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