Fragments

Today, I got hurt…I feel like I could break down and cry. Just a few simple written words reduced me to nothing, making me churn inside. Making me remember all the moments, all the things said. Things that at the time felt real, but weren’t.
Friendship doesn’t last forever, unless you are strong. There are always things getting in the way, creating little nagging doubts. That just won’t go AWAY!
And then it ends.
Sometimes in the blink of an eye, sometimes so slowly you don’t even notice…Until it’s too late. So many things you wished you had done, wished you had paid more attention to.

For once, I wish things lasted for ever.
For once, I wish I wasn’t left feeling numb inside, wanting to scream.

It’s amazing how easily things end. One minute its happening, the next its over. And then the numbness takes over, washing through my body, to powerful to control.

But the worst is the flood of emotions, when the numbness ebbs away.
Emotions I don’t think I can deal with, that leave me shaking and wrecked. That I just can’t explain to anyone.