Save me. Just save me. Take me some place else, where it´s just me. Please.
Wierd mood, annoying people, loud noises, loads of things to do, and just a general need to scream very loud.
Its me, I know, but for some reason, people werent saying the right things, let alone doing them.
People with a complete lack of autonomy but a brimful of sickly sweetness look at me (or us) for guidance, and when we dont have it, they blame us. Oh, sorry you arent responsible, sorry you dont have a fucking imagination, sorry Im not gonna tell you what to do today.
I swallow the torrent of words.
Dont make it harder.
Theres no point.
Just fuck off and leave me alone.
Sometimes I dont want to organize everyone elses life, and I just want to concentrate on myself. Is that bad?Is it wrong?
Self esteem is at its lowest, I feel like an inadequate freak of nature and how do I explain that when you ask me if Im allrigh?
I dont, simple.
And easy.
Just save me.
Im sitting here, and already my mind is going over the trillion things I have to do tomorrow, things that other people wouldnt find necessary, but that to me are important. Things that if I dont do, will bother me all weekend.
I never seem to manage to be here, and now. My thoughts wander without me even noticing. Arggghhhhhhhh...
Tears threaten to stream down my face for no reason, and Im very tempted to let them.
Let it all out.
But what good will it do? It wont change the way I feel, or why I feel like this. it will just give me a false sense of wellbeing that will wear off in a few hours.
Sometimes, I can scream so loud without opening my mouth.
Save me, please.
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