I lean across the foot of the bed, and reach for the light switch. As I do, I smile at myself in the mirror. No matter how awful, or how amazing the day was, I always smile. And click, I´m bathed in silky darkness.
After the lights went out, when I still lived at home, I would lie there in the dark and dream up a different world, filled with smiles, hugs, and normality. I always wished for normality. So hard, and for so long. I hated being the freak, the strange one. I wished for a normal family, and for confort, and reassurance. For protection. I soon realised it was a better idea to rely on myself.
Now, so much has changed. I look around, and all I see are people struggling to be different. Struggling, fighting harder than I ever did. Trying not to get sucked into this world that they worked so hard to create.
Make up your mind, why don´t you?
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whatever you want/dont want is in your vibrational bubble ,
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